I’m so sick
Dancing around the subject
Like a hair pin trigger
So sick
Trying not to set
Myself
Off
Boom
I’m an explosion.
Waiting to ruin
Your
Good day,
So happy
having dinner
With you
New fiance
Her mouth
Full of
Champange
Bubbles
Gasp for air
I’m searching
For your hand
Wrapped
Around
My throat
Makes me,
Wet.
So sick.
Your big brown eyes
Looking down
On
Me
Trading
Love and lust
Like euros
Between
Boarders
Of countries
Becoming
One.
I don’t belong,
To
Me
Anymore,
Not since
You took
My
Small
Child
Mind.
Why Don’t
You still want
Me?
Why Don’t
You still need
Me?
Tossed
Aside
Raggedy Ann
Doll
Bleeding
Between
My legs
Like a
Broken
Whore.
No one can
See the
Atrophy
Inside
Me
The
Hurts not
Visible
Unless you
Feel it.
My innocents,
A ghost
Limb,
Twitching in
The distance
Fingers gripping
Swing set chains.
Fingers gripping
The hair on your arms.
Holding on
For dear life
As you take
Me
In my mind
As
You
Take
My
Mind.
I don’t
Know
How to
Love
Without
You
Hurting
Me.